A blessing in disguise.

What a weekend! My cousin passed away last week so I had to take a last minute trip to Houston. Left the house at 6 am to make it there at 11 am and oddly enough it was one of the best days ever. I got to see my uncle, finally, after over 11 years. He was my favorite one. Also, my grandma was there too and a distant cousin I would love to keep in touch with.

I wonder if people ever really sit and think about the reasons why their parents do things when they were young. I came from a VERY sheltered life; no friends, no telephone, no nothing. My life consisted of studying, eating, and doing chores. There are not a lot of good memories about my childhood at all. Back then I hated every moment of it because it was a very abusive and controlling time in my life. Now that I look back on things, I realize that what I went through as a child is probably one of the best things my mom could do for me. She loved me so dearly, but expressed it in a harsh difficult way. I am thankful for that now otherwise Id probably be a dumbass druggy with no motivation in life. Not having friends as a child (and I do mean that literally, if I got caught talking to someone at school I would get in trouble) has helped me realize that I am the most important thing in my life - not to put that selfishly. My studying and what I need to do to get things done comes before procrastation for social time. Ive realized that people today do not have the morals and honesty that I have, and I learned that the hard way by putting them at the same "level" as I am. It sounds cynical, but the reality of it is true.

My birthday is in a little over a month and I was trying to plan a trip to Vegas for it but.. plans have changed. I got an invite to go to Belize instead and Im talking her up on it! Nothing is set in stone, but Ill keep you guys posted!